Another coffee, please
For one is no longer enough
These days I wish not to wake up
Just stay inside a dreamless sleep

Another coffee, please
Bitter and dark
Like the circles around my restless eyes
In dark nostalgic melancholy
I feel my mind dangerously slip

Another coffee, please
This time put a little sugar in it
So I can taste a bit of sweet
As the caffeine boosts my heart’s final beats
Right before the cyanide kicks in
To grant me some relief
Eternal sleep:
Bliss

so, my main blog is called “anothercoffeeplease”, and I’ve always wanted to develop this sentence into a poem…

ERMAHGOD! MY GAME IS IN GOOGLE PLAY STORE!

After blood, sweat and tears, working through late nights, sacrificed weekends and a lot of coffee, the internship has come to an end, and the game is finally available in Google Play Store, and soon (1-2 weeks) will also be at AppStore for iPhone 5. Art all done by me, except for some details because the deadline was too tight and we were running out of time.

I would like to thank the coffee who has never abandoned me since the beginning of the project until the very ending. I would also like to thank Chris Coxand Justin Parsler for the great opportunity, and Chris WinnAli Abdullah MarwaniBen Lunato and Davide Alexandro Fiandra for the hard work - and for helping with the unfinished art.
It was great working with you, and I’m certainly going to miss you and all the rest of the Brunel Game Design students who I had the luck to study and work with.
You’re awesome. Keep up the good work, I wish you all the best.
o/

The demo version is free and the full game can be purchased by clicking on the option “upgrade for full game” for the price of 0.50 pence in the UK (converted to your currency automatically since it’s available in the whole world.

You can download it here.

Bad news is I haven’t been drawing much personal stuff lately, but that’s cause we are crazy busy at the Games Design Internship.

We are finally reaching the last week, so we have been working non-stop, week days, weekends, late nights, luchtimes…

The good news is soon I’ll have tons of art that I have been dying to show you, but couldn’t because of the confidentiality clauses on the contract and all that thing - you know how these things are, right

So, now is fingers crossed and hope our game is approved and published, and then you’ll be able to download it to your iPhone or Android, HOW AWESOME IS THIS?!

A FULL GAME DRAWN BY ME, HELL YEAH *proud*

Uma breve análise sobre os sentimentos do Brasil pós derrota para a Alemanha nas semifinais:

Após observação de atividade no facebook nas redes sociais, concluo que a dor do brasileiro pela derrota é imensa, maior do que quase tudo. Porém ainda não é maior que a zueira, pois essa não tem fim.

Idk, not sleepy at 3 am + depression + suicidal thoughts + thinking about love and relationships and how no matter how much we love we always end up hurting who we love and ourselves + having browsed through this gallery right before starting drawing + wanted to draw  a hand = this drawing.

P.S.: the blood puddle shape was supposed to look like a heart. Ugh, I’ll fix that on another time.

Lineart WIP from the cover page for my manga project I talked about a few posts ago.
Drawing wings is a fucking masochist thing! >_

I just knew from facebook a friend of a friend (I didn’t know her) commited suicide. It’s the second person in maybe 2 or 3 months related to me that died. The 1st one I met him few times, didn’t know him very well, but he was a nice guy…

I’m shocked. Suicide is a kind of death that particularly moves me. I wonder what was on her mind, what she felt… I fight depression everyday as well. I spent long nights talking a friend out of the idea of suicide… I was terribly afraid he was going to do it and I am relieved he is ok and in treatment now.

Anyway, I don’t know, I’m shocked and just wanted to share this because I’m sad.

I wonder, I didn’t know her, but what if I was a close friend? or family?

I am scared of this happening to someone close to me…

My grandfather died days before I travelled to UK and I didn’t have the chance to say good bye…

I’m very far from home now, I wouldn’t even be able to say good bye…

CHANGING ALL “Z” FOR “S” IN “ORGANISED” AND ADDING “U” TO ALL “COLOURS” BECAUSE I’M ALMOST COMPLETING AN YEAR IN THE UK AND NOW MY BLODDY ENGLISH IS BRITISH, BITCH

How Long ‘Til The End?

How can I ever live like this?
I can’t stand this loneliness
Emptiness
In my heart your indifference leaves
Confusion all over my head
-Bad thoughts of cutting wrists

My soul cries
The tears burn my eyes
Everytime I remember
You’ll never love me as I for long desired

You now love someone else
I feel jealous and I don’t have the right to be
My feelings I have to hide
Forever locked inside of me
I have so much I’d like to say
But said from me these words are meaningless
to you

I must always smile as if it’s alright
Well, it is not!
And I must act as if it was
I’m pretending all the time
I smile when I wanna cry
I swallow my tears and pretend I’m fine
But this is all a big lie… I don’t wanna lie anymore
How much longer can I stand?
For how long will I still have to pretend?
Will this ever have an end?
What am I supposed to do ‘til then?!

2010

"I want you to notice when I’m not around
I wish I was special
So fucking special
But I’m a creep…” 
-®Radiohead: "Creep"

"When I’m Not Around" - 2010

"Prisoner" - 2010

"…you’re killing me, killing me!

All I wanted was you!…”  - Thirty Seconds To Mars - “The Kill”

Kind of a self-portrait. Not very realistic though…

"Look In My Eyes" - 2010