Uma breve análise sobre os sentimentos do Brasil pós derrota para a Alemanha nas semifinais:

Após observação de atividade no facebook nas redes sociais, concluo que a dor do brasileiro pela derrota é imensa, maior do que quase tudo. Porém ainda não é maior que a zueira, pois essa não tem fim.

Idk, not sleepy at 3 am + depression + suicidal thoughts + thinking about love and relationships and how no matter how much we love we always end up hurting who we love and ourselves + having browsed through this gallery right before starting drawing + wanted to draw  a hand = this drawing.

P.S.: the blood puddle shape was supposed to look like a heart. Ugh, I’ll fix that on another time.

Lineart WIP from the cover page for my manga project I talked about a few posts ago.
Drawing wings is a fucking masochist thing! >_

I just knew from facebook a friend of a friend (I didn’t know her) commited suicide. It’s the second person in maybe 2 or 3 months related to me that died. The 1st one I met him few times, didn’t know him very well, but he was a nice guy…

I’m shocked. Suicide is a kind of death that particularly moves me. I wonder what was on her mind, what she felt… I fight depression everyday as well. I spent long nights talking a friend out of the idea of suicide… I was terribly afraid he was going to do it and I am relieved he is ok and in treatment now.

Anyway, I don’t know, I’m shocked and just wanted to share this because I’m sad.

I wonder, I didn’t know her, but what if I was a close friend? or family?

I am scared of this happening to someone close to me…

My grandfather died days before I travelled to UK and I didn’t have the chance to say good bye…

I’m very far from home now, I wouldn’t even be able to say good bye…

CHANGING ALL “Z” FOR “S” IN “ORGANISED” AND ADDING “U” TO ALL “COLOURS” BECAUSE I’M ALMOST COMPLETING AN YEAR IN THE UK AND NOW MY BLODDY ENGLISH IS BRITISH, BITCH

How Long ‘Til The End?

How can I ever live like this?
I can’t stand this loneliness
Emptiness
In my heart your indifference leaves
Confusion all over my head
-Bad thoughts of cutting wrists

My soul cries
The tears burn my eyes
Everytime I remember
You’ll never love me as I for long desired

You now love someone else
I feel jealous and I don’t have the right to be
My feelings I have to hide
Forever locked inside of me
I have so much I’d like to say
But said from me these words are meaningless
to you

I must always smile as if it’s alright
Well, it is not!
And I must act as if it was
I’m pretending all the time
I smile when I wanna cry
I swallow my tears and pretend I’m fine
But this is all a big lie… I don’t wanna lie anymore
How much longer can I stand?
For how long will I still have to pretend?
Will this ever have an end?
What am I supposed to do ‘til then?!

2010

"I want you to notice when I’m not around
I wish I was special
So fucking special
But I’m a creep…” 
-®Radiohead: "Creep"

"When I’m Not Around" - 2010

"Prisoner" - 2010

"…you’re killing me, killing me!

All I wanted was you!…”  - Thirty Seconds To Mars - “The Kill”

Kind of a self-portrait. Not very realistic though…

"Look In My Eyes" - 2010

"Love Is A Warm Gun".

Done in a sleepless night of 2010.

Ballpoint pen + Photoshop.

I’m bored and I’m not sleepy, so I am organising the layout of this blog and I’ll be uploading some old stuff in the next few minutes.

WIP - Manga Project: The Death Conspiracy  - concept artbook cover

I decided to resume my manga project, so I bought a hard cover sketch book to organise my ideas, make character sheets, concept drawings, etc. This is what I was drawing today on it the “cover” double page.